●◊schmeek◊●

It's really weird, for textiles, I have never gotten a mark higher than merit. Yes, that is bad. No matter how hard I try, it just doesn't happen. Earlier, we handed in a formative assesment thing, and when she returned it, she said I was sitting on achieved, so I decided to rewrite nearly all my paperwork which took me several hours, I borrowed my friends to use as model answers since she said that she was verging on excellence. I couldn't rely on my garment to get more than acheived since, I wasn't very good with "controlling" it etc, coz was super slippery. Twas extremely awkward when she handed it back to us after the final marking, Lochiel got double excellence, Allie got double merit and me, I got double friggin achieved, " at least you're getting your credits" said she. and I have no idea where I went wrong. Really really don't.

ARGHSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Oh yesh, exams starts on tues for me, man I'm happy I'm not a science student, otherwise...uh. yea

23rd nov = yaay
28th nov :D

5 more weeks till holidays :D
then just a few more months, before I'm back in asialand. I don't know why I'm so excited so early! Haha~ and pretty much this term is to get my folios done. Hopefully. Like...my hardest subject this year...just seems to be design, then french(?)/textiles. ughhh. =="
Can't really believe that I've already failed one paper this year though... Would really like to thank those that helped encourage me with my stuff. Espec during my design, (hah, thanks josh)...when to me nothing seemed to work right at all, but it was actually turning out. It's weird how much encouragement actually helps pull people through to the next stage really, and how little of it people get these days. So many people deserve it, but instead they just get critcised on the lack of things than the other.
This year, I would probably be gone without it. Only had a few anyways, but for me..it really made a huge difference.
For me, it is kinda hard to see if the work produced by yourself is actually good. It just seems there, knowing all the hours you've slaved over it to get it done, and all the effort as well. It is hard to believe, but I guess it is worth it in the end.
o.o;;
and also when I occasionally complain at work, my friend always helps me. :D

Lifee is good. =] I just wish we had one extra week ofschool holidays...since I kinda worked 11/14 days of the hols...coz I helped to pick up some shifts, and aside from that I've been out quite alot. Haha, well yesterday went paintball it was fun! And my gosh mina looked like a wolf that would hunt you down. She really did. And she hit me in the ass. So did paige...==" and someone hit me in the hip. So I am bruised...ahaha.
Then went to work and I couldn't find my makeup case...I found it in the car, but I couldn't find my eyelash crimper T___T and I mainly use mascara...and I still can't find it...arghhhsss....makeup is taking a toll on money usage...
The only day I actually fully stayed home was wed! annd that daaaay, I managed to edit my photos, from 374, down to 90. YUS! now I just need to get it down to 36...bahh. it hard. And, I also semi planned out half of my french conv. =D now just to put in more vocab. One day of succesfull studying! Haha, and french conv is on the tuesday back... eeps.

Oh gosh, like I've been wanting to go on french exchange for...ages, and according to STS, I wont be able to do it after my year 13 , coz I would be too old, and the entry requirement to get into a uni is year 13/ncea level3. Gosh I wish I was put up a year right now... I really really wanna go for the exchange...but I need/want to get into uni, I don't wanna go to a polytech... T_T

Oh my goodness today was such a good day. =]
Apart from Claudiu getting us lost on the way to bowling...thankgoodness for Alex calling my phone or we would've been really lost. xD. Bowling was awesome fun though. It was me, mandy,claudiu, vee, alex. and her Tahitian boy!
Ahahaa, when me + claudiu finally got there, we found mandy and vee at the counter, then they brought us to Kevin and Alex who were playing this racing game. When they finished, Kevin acknowledged us quite fast. He did this really cool handshake thing with Claudiu, and then he came closer to me and I was like eh. Then I realised. That was meant to do the cheek-to-cheek-thing.. I felt kinda awkward because I forgot you're meant to do it twice. Pahahaaa. He's a nice guy though, and he looks really pro when bowling. Played 2 sets of bowling, first set without gutter guards, 2nd set with. It was funny as though. We got distracted by the extra games...thenn we went to town for lunchh. annd yehh... was winding up "g" through text on mandys phone. was quite funny. We were walking back to the cathedral square and mandy just had to say. "omgsh would be funny if we saw "g" and he was walking infront of us towards our direction. and I was like omgsh. HEY LOOK theres a shortcut to the square! *ran across the road* They caught up eventually. He didn't see. Thankgoodness.

Came home and then packed and went to go do some photog at badminton hall. Thanks also to Jamie, Edward, Alex Thanavit and Tina for coming. =] Was quite funny and hopefully I managed to get some good shots.

Life.Is.Good.

I'm still contemplating whether to go out tomoro or not...hmmm.

This is the second time, that I will need to restart my design. I find it still really weird that we have to copy artist models. And, I really dislike it. My art teachers can probably tell by now.eg. For Photography, in my first contact series for pics from home, my teacher decided to ask me what artist models I used, and didn't end up choosing any of the photos as a 'strong'-ish photo to develop on, yet I ended up using one of those first shots on my final 8 booklet. Which is meant to illustrate our best shots. . .
I understand that artist models are meant to be our "guide" but, why is it in design, I have to totally stick to it. It is quite ironic, especially when the topic of our folio is " It's good to be (insert name)" Currently, I may as well change my name off it, and put in my teachers. I have had to change my postcards so much. I don't even like one of them (the first one that my teacher told me to change to an example that she found)
Today, she told me she didn't like my other postcard, and also quite insulted me. She claimed 2 of the images I had put there looked like clipart. One of those images, was a simplified version on the malaysian flag which I made round to make it look like a button, hence to relate to where I came from and also that I like fashion. The other was a photo, it was of my arm when vicky was here, since she used to draw and paint on my arm. The picture was of my chinese name, and I cropped it abit so it wouldn't be looking so obviously like my arm, then embossed it to take the colour out of my arm. I have really lost my motivation for design... and to think she would know what my name is now, even though she has taught me for two years, she still gets my name muddled up with grace, who is in my class this year as well.
It seems so contradictory to do something about yourself, yet copy some ones idea. It seems if anyone gets their stuff put in a book. Its alright. baahhh.

Its so bad for me to turn around in class, when everyones work looks so beautiful, and I'm still stuck on my first item...I know that when you look at everything in the end, it'd all look good, but I just don't really see it turning out good.

I guess I really need to thank Jamie for the tip of taking a deep breath. It really helps though, weirdly enough...

I really can't wait for the holidays. I need time.For myself.To relax.For God.To refresh.My mind. I just feel really lost right now...

Sur la autre cote. I finally managed to obtain my first few exc credits. I seemed to be a merit student, so I found it quite unexpected. I really hope to somehow gain at least a merit for my textiles...

Also, in my current state...I think..I really need a "mature" person to talk to...

I think its post 100? xD

Well, I just booked my ticket for malaysia yesterday! woohoo~! Now, I have just enough money for the formal ticket...man, I guess I need next thursday to come soon.
"Casino Royale"
I'm sure theres a girl in that movie which wears a gold dress. Hahh.

Well, i came home and turned on the tv, then changed the channel to the korean channel coz it sometimes they have interesting stuff sometimes. Then there were people with music videos, then seeing some of the girls dance. It's kinda weird. Theirs looks weird, but if it was the "europeans" doing it, it'd seem alrite e.g. secret [girls band] and U-kiss [guy band] The guys wear so much eyeliner...more than me whenever I apply makeup, which I'm getting quite lazy to since I sometimes forget to take it off before I sleep and it totally dries my eyes. I also need to remember to put on my eyeliner before my contact lens...otherwise sometimes the gel gets on my contact lens. xD It feels funny.

Waheiii.
Can't wait for nexttt yeaaaaar?

Oh mygoodness. I'm last for seminar >.<"" gaaaaaahhh.
And, I need to write it. So, I am going onn Thursdaaayyy. next thursday. haiks!

So, 'all' of us are meant to be starting our seminars on mon? Well, I was looking through some poems and finally found one, which was the one that my sis had told me to do. xD But...I found this one..interesting "Pretty Girl" by Ashlee Kilbourn

18 credits are due between the timespan of, this coming week. That sounds pretty creepy once clumped together, because if you miss one thing, then, goodbye 6-potential-excellence-merit-acheived-credits. This, is probably the first time I'm kinda worrying about this stuff. 60% because, I know I did most of the hands-on work, and left the "easy"(mainly paperwork) things behind, aka the important things that you need. Like, you have the main things, but...aRGHS. For textiles, it is really really unknown what we would get, the teacher hasn't really given us an indication. Gosh...it's so easy there, to think you have so much time and so little to do... and it obviously hits you... I'm having a little trouble with the evaluation bit, so I have to wait till tomorrow to do it, when I see how Lochiel's layout. Gee, speaking of that, I now need to go make a title page.
Oh and for Photography, all I need to do now is select my final 8 shots =D But, I also kinda need to do 3 more writeups and justifications, and groupings for it...
And Design! We have just been given our folio brief, and I forsee myself being stuck in the room, unless I download the program...it takes up just over 1GB of space ==" I'm kinda worrying on how I'm gonna do it....its called "It's good to be (insert your name) " which, I guess, makes it easier?

Hmm, just got back from Yamagen.
It was really amusing. Hahhh.

CAMEL.

I could really need a hot/ice chocolate right nowww...
(I could really use a wish right now..)

Which reminds me...time to choose a poem for seminar.
I dearly hope I did alright in the listening midyear... writting and reading next week...and as far as I know..my writting,is horrible. c'est vraiment affreux!

Oooh, theres a new guy in our french class ( again )
I think his name's Ed, first thing I thought was, omgsh, was he ( insert name here ) ex. Then I realised...oops...he aint dark. HAHA. I amuse myself..

Dig.It.In.

ooooh. caesura!

Like dude...In general, it's usually 'black' guys that sing rap and all that, but these two songs are like reeaaaaaal gooood.by GAGE - Pardonnez-moi

me likeey. and Generation msn by C-Sheyn. He gots lotsa bling. xD


The songs were totally different than what I had expected.

Hmm, Man, it was really weird, today I came home from maths exam, and was like, wow, what is there to do now? It's rare to have free time where there isn't really anything to do ( this excludes procrastination time) It was such a weird feeling...
Well, aside from that, went to training? I now must remember the importance of a cool down. ahah. Should've known it but...meh? It was raining quite hard...and I bussed there. I was quite happy coz for the first time, there was actually free seats on the bus and i didn't have to sit next to a random, which is what happened for the past few times I went to training. Benson ended up sitting with me though? So that kinda kept me awake since I was quite tired.
Finally told Sophie today who I was, and she was like ohhh you use to live at the cresent ae? yeehhhp, then the dad was like are you graces sister?? yehhhp again. then a " I vaguely remember you when you were this small!" Points to less than a metre off the ground. Ahahaa...oddly enough, Sophie remembered I had cool barbie games...xD

Maaaan, I'm so tired today, woke up at 5.20 am thinking I had to go to school, sat up, and was like ahhh, I really can't be bothered to do my makeup for work. I was running outta mascara, sooo, I got a new one today. Why, does the things I want to buy (in terms of cosmetics) all cost $34 e.g. my mac eyeliner, l'oreal mascara, and body shop exfoliater. Putting it all together sounds so expensive! I want the exfoliater soon, but not yet, coz I already ran out ==" and I really need to get my camera. AFTER, I get my camera, then I'll finally buy myself a black eyeliner...I can't believe I don't own one.Well, I do, but its hard so I don't use it..so my default colour is purple, and I ran outta blue eyeliner which is sad T_T. And, I just realised the other day that the first mascara I bought with my own money, was turquoise. Sadly, it is obviously gone.
Oh great, now this sounds like such a materialistic post, when I was meant to write about something else...

WELL, today, I brought Paige+ Cat dress shopping, my gosh it was tiring, and since they are probably the most resistant to trying on clothes with us around...least they did end up trying some. Hah... found a dress I liked as well, not for formal, but it had a zip thing going across it, was $90 but im not gonna get it though its pretty...

I'm wondering how I'm currently gonna survive next week, I'm bit worried coz its the week before the mock exams ( I only have maths but I don't know if I will have time to revise...><") and, my aunty is coming tomoro and leaving next sunday. (exactly a week) and I am going to be working 3 days that shes here ... and its not short shifts... wed = full day out coz I have some thing thing, and sat its brekie +lunch. and the other one...mehhhh. and the other one...mehh...

hmm, I can't find my pencil case, and I don't know where I put it D:
I think I lost it at school. ahh pooopies..

Cat made me realise something...I have yet to think about my jewellery for formal...BAH!

well, I semi- even forgot about what happened today, kept thinking about the other days.

Well, there was the student expo. I found it hilarious that the people thought that Paige was too young(under16) to test her blood, but they let Jade.

I really couldn't be bothered talking to any of the people about the courses thing. The only person I talked to, was coz I felt really random. I went to a cpit dude with chef uniform on. and was like " Hey are you a chef at cpit? do you know a guy called Tony?"
Now I'm thinking, that that dude would've been like...gosh thats a weird person. Maybe I shouldn't have done that. Was quite impulsive and bored at that stage. xD

Haah. Saw Jamie today. We were doing warm ups and Edward was like to her, do you miss anything at burnside? and she was like just the work load..nothing else.. and I was like...you dont miss us?! pffsssh.

Okaaay. I'm clearly procrastinating. Gosh.
I wonder....

I think...I need a ..




all 'conversations' things written on this blog is purely more or less what the sayer had said. I don't recall everything...sadly..

Hmm,
like usual, I suppose things change, people change, crap happens, but the living cycle just goes on.

Oops, I guess I just covered everything...extremly vaguely.


ARGHS! I really need a new pair of earphone to block everything out...

I don't really get it... I have a small(current) pile of homework, but I just can't kick myself to do it until the night before, which is plain stupid. Like, now, I have 3 more(at least) design stationary analysis to do. Research for english...which I don't feel like doing at all, I'm tempted just to take tomorrows lesson to catch up on sleep then get it done all wed, then proof read it all on Thursday.

Hmm, I seem to be extroverted when out and everything, my usual self would be like ... like my usual self ... but I don't know why sometimes I'm just so tired of people. Liiiikeeee take that cake off your freaking face.


Another thing I don't really get is...the feeling of wanting to cry for just no reason, and pretty much any reason...

days till hols. =D

Total excitement like usual.
And once again I forgot what I was gonna write.

6M credits so far..
3A coz of trig u.s.

=="
I guess its alright for just the first term?

And, I got my perfume.
But now I want all 3 of the Juicy Coutures, mainly, the one that just came out.

+ I really really want an easterbunny/egg.

Tired.
Didn't end up going to AMI stadium. T____T
I still want that perfume, in retail, it costs $60 moree...
GAY

Man, this month feels like a post a blog month...
It's probs the most I've posted for quite awhile now =] really should be typing out the rest of my french speech, but hmm. Starts monday! Exciting! and after that, I don't have anymore internals for the term! [excluding art + textiles coz those are ongoing processes]
My speech will probs be around 3 mins, coz its really hard to fit info a bout a country and also info bout the fench speaking world in 2 minutes, problem is, needs to be memorised, well 90% should be. Apparenly most schools only make you do speech or conversation. I hope the conv goes well but its ages away so Imma enjoy myself before then. [Well, mehh, should be enjoying either way..]

This week =
1 day off school
3 nights work, 1 morning
2 nights baddy.

I.Like.Life.? y.e.s.h.

I'm still really indecisive about goingback to malaysia right now. I wanna go back end of this year coz my frens are finishing up school, but I wanna save up for my 'big' 2012 trip when going to France for at least half a year, and also going to malaysia after that... mmmh. I would be booking my own ticket etc. So I don't know how long I should stay etcetc...? hmm. anyone know when school starts next year? lol

Till holidays,
I know this is starting off just like last post. But, I really want it to come just a bit faster. Its been pretty weird these days...like, I really don't think I've matured thaaat much, but I know I have.

>.<"

GAH! I just want a break from school. Thank goodness for the teachers only day this thurs. It's not the work load from school. It's just, I want some free time. Like...duuuudeeee... it currently just seems like a wakeup-school-home-work-sleep routine for half of my week...
It's good, but bad. The fact that I have work makes me do my homework more often, and makes me pick up some slack, but sometimes I don't know if I'm doing abit much of it during school days...
Guess it gives me tiny bit more in my pocket...but, I'm not exactly too concerned on that part yet. I just really want to get my camera. [cheapest is $1800] ...


2more internals to go...schweeeetas bro'o

bring on the holidays!

.Thank you to the people that come out to town[etc.] with me and help keep me sane.

p.s. les --> imma ask you some thiiiings sooooooon. oooooh.

Till, HOLIDAYS!
I is excited.
Hahaaa

"Im a hot chickennn" - Clearasil ad.

Man I just opened a packet of thins beside me at the computer. Bad Idea...Very Very bad. I hate it, for the fact it says "One is never enough"
Its true...sadly.
But me likey it. I think gloomy days make you want to eat alot more don't they?

This term, my main homework has come from :: Design exciting muuch... not.

Hahaa anndd I has an internal in two weeks! =D
and...for french we finished reading the first chapter for "les vacances du petit Nicolas." I'm heart broken coz thats as much as we're gonna read in class...its such a cute book + I love the illustrations. Theres a movie about it coming out which I really want to watch, except...the guy isn't cute enough to portray the innocence of nicolas!

And, I totally forgot what I was originally gonna write for this so it turned out in to all that I've written. HEH.

Thank goodness so far, this term has passed by fast. :] But, like always, theres quite a bit of work to follow along with it, so pooes.
For Design, since we had 1 week to do 2o squares, id assume we get 2 weeks to do 40/60 squares. but no. its...4 days. AH!! ==" at least this time is logos, but aside from the time i have now currently typing which I could be spending doing that...I have sunday and monday to finish it. whooopie.
Photogs, 11 analysis are due on wed, and I hasnt started a single one yet...it's always the thing that you have to do but when it comes to doing it you find something alot more important.
Textiles. I badly wanna start my mockup next week but will probs has to be next next...
French :: gah. its not too bad the homework
Eng : o.o;;
Maths:: the meaning of gay.

poops. I never really like to say 'im busy' because I'll never know when I'll hit a 'busier' day, so yea..I'm currently, not as free as I'd like to be.

Everyone apart from me seems to have a green pool. Ew.
Tomoro: Maths common test
Next week: Trig test, and creative writing

OMGSH I LOOKED UP AND THERES A HUGE DADDY LONG LEGS!

Next next week : french speech...AHH

okay, the spider has provoked my memory to tell a story ::

The other day in the shower I saw a 'baby' daddy long legs. I was like woaaah. Then the next day I saw one bout 1 cm or 2cm bigger and at the same spot and thought. IMPOSSIBLE for it to have grown that much, then I looked bit closer and I saw 6 shorter legs just below it without a round body. And...that kinda scared me-ish. Haha.

I have to say,
I love cheesy pick up lines. It's hilarious. I got that one from a magazine at Louise's place. My gosh the other ones were quite funny too. I walked to her place...took less time than walking to Cat's I think even though it seems like Louise's is further.. Haha, twas quite fun. I still can't believe she got the side of the cube faster than me.

Is it me or...if you open a pack of chips while doing something, you always find it nearly gone...? Coz, we were chatting and looking at stuff. [I think] and the chip packet was just there....and yea. She made me cut my nails T_T I think Imma miss my nails...they were at a really good length to do french tips at, since it had quite abit of 'white' but It had to be cut. I initially was going to file it...but she didn't have a file...and she threw me a nail clipper so yeaaa... It's significantly shorter now. My nails would be perfect if it weren't for the nail that got chopped by the knife, and the nail that broke in the door knob. ah!

Oh gosh, at the mid of my 'text month' I saw I had 1000+ text...so I lent a few to my sis (less than 10), thinking that I wouldn't finish it...and the next day, I had about 800 =__=" now I still have a week to go and under a hundred. I wonder if the text4000 thing is real. If so then I think I'll get it after my text month expires. Oh and I'll need to top up to. Goodness me...

I really need to be having proper blog titles, but I really just can't think of one on the spot. Well, I can, but...meh.

Today, I was going to town with cat, we just got off the bus, and I got a phone call. I thought my phone had randomly dialled a number again, but I checked it and my phone was ringing. Picked it up, and... I now have a job! [Thank God] =D yus! So we went to pick up my contract.

Hmm, aside from that, I finally got stationary shopping done. My gosh it was heavy. My one object was A3 sized, and heavy. Then, went to get Leslie's and that definitely added to the weight... yes, I have the receipt Leslie, I'll pass it the stuff to you when I see you I suppose.

I can't believe these hols are nearly over ...

I really hope that there will be people I know in my form class...
...nothing like sitting next to random people to starting off the day...
...I guess I wouldn't mind it as much if that were to happen in other class'
...but I know I will definitely know people in most of my options...
...I hope I will know someone in my maths! I'm sure I'll know someone in eng...*hopefully*

.

2010, the start of a new decade.

Baah, It was a nice day to start of the year here I'd say! =] But the folowing days, I fell sick, because I caught the flu from my sis.. oh joy~ So now I've finally recovered. I had to take this really weird smelling antibiotic, and that night I had to take a panadol. The problem was I can't swallow pills. We were out of soluble, so my sis was like "okay, we can halve this, quarter it, or eightth it, which one would you like" I chose to eight-eth it. I attempted to swallow it, and I failed. 2 attempts. On the 2nd attempt I managed to get abit down, but spat the rest out. She gave up, and powdered it and put it on to jam bread.to try 'disguise' it so she put on HEAPS of jam. The second problem was, she put waaay too much jam on, so it oozed out-ish. And I could see where the panadol was. It looked as if it was mold on jam =.=" I managed to stomach it though! Took about 30 mins to eat though . Uck. Least I felt alot better after!

Oh, + we've been walking/jogging/running the dog. I tried to get a picture with it, and it licked my chin ughh....i ran straight to wash the dog slobber. =__=" the pic was the dog before it licked me .

Cant really think what to write anymore. meh